It's A War Outside

It's a war outside of me

Yet I feel like I'm fighting a war within 

Set me free but freedom ain't free

Black is beautiful yet we had to relearn our purpose 

Beneath the surface of pain and resilience 

We had to fight for basic human rights 

Humanity for the human race 

It's really a fucking disgrace

For us to have to debate for dignity to exist in a place that was never built for us but built on the backs of our ancestors 

I promise they ain't please 

Yet I beg you please 

Release this war within me

There's a war outside 

The fear of my own silence is loud 

Louder than the way my soul has cried 

You have to die everyday just to feel alive 

Divine Spirit and my ancestors souls cry 

I am high yet I feel so low 

They go lower and we go higher 

Some of us are oblivious to the calling 

Oppressed in a nation with no real calling 

What a disgrace to live in a nation with no grace 

Distasteful and derogatory tactics 

Hateful antics 

Policies with no means to end this war outside 

I'm deeply impacted my throat Chakra is active yet inactive 

I have enough energy to disburse the words from my heart to my brain so eloquently 

Grateful for my Creativity

The Creator created me just like he created the enemy 

Yet they still don't see me pass the first layer of my skin 

It's like being black is a sin

Being powerful and overcoming the very thing sent to destroy us 

Gave birth to the versions of us who are enraged with a mouthful of  "What the fucks?" 

Knowing that they never gave a fuck about our Humanity as black people 

Such is a time like this when "They" realize their lives don't mean shit in the new land of Trumps Dictatorship 

When they have been killing us for free for fun for nothing less then because they knew they could get away with it

Now all lives matter when Black people's lives never did

Yet I'm still fighting a war outside for crimes of dehumanization I didn't commit

How do you quit a job you never signed up for?

End a war that was never yours 

There's a war outside all of our doors 

I am sitting somewhere between conviction and depiction 

Scream and pray 

Burn it all to hell while pouring from an empty well to continue to love, be light and pour life into the lives I created 

How do I continue to fight a battle that started before I was born?

From decades of ancestors who had to endure hatred for way to long

There is no more songs or variations to sing we are strong 

My soul feels weary 

Every time I hear, see or read the news 

The I.C.E is deforsted on top of the inhumane evil ass mountain 

I am numb to the history I was taught about our people 

Defeated by the war outside 

Tears in my eyes cuz sometimes my tears are tired 

My emotions exploded and I'm back in a war within myself 

When the war was never minds 

It's a war outside