Kindred The Family Soul...They Have Inspired Me!!

I heard of them a few years back and I have always loved their music. I rediscovered them and fell in love with them all over again. They are such an inspiration to love..black love!! They are also and inspiration to real marriages that are alive and growing. Just watching them perform and interact with each other just shows me that I still have hope. Hope in love and peace. Not saying that I don't have love and peace now, but that I will have love and peace in a partner in life. And if I never get married their marriage will continue to inspire me in others ways. They are such a powerful couple. The love they share can only be something God created between them. Today, marriage is not perceived how it was years ago. Now days people don't stay married very long. I know I still have much more life to live and marriage is probably the last thing that should be on my mind considering my age, however I have an old soul. I embrace my old soul or shall I say my wise soul. Any hew, enough about me lol. Back to Kindred The Family Soul. I can feel their chemistry when they perform.There are an ordinary couple with and extraordinary kind of love. Go support them. They have various albums.Kindred The family Soul performing xoxo

Marriage....Will I ever get Married??

What do men want?? I know I want to get married. I'm 26yrs old but I know what I want. I just feel like I may never get married. I have so many things to offer to a man. So many things to share. I want a life partner to grow with spiritually. To connect with mentally and physically. I just don't want to leave this earth never being able to experience being married. There are a few things that I would like to accomplish before I get married. However, If I got married I would still accomplish my goals. I think my biological clock is ticking and I want to be married and add more to my family. 3 more children would be lovely. Patience also plays a big part in wanting to be married. God has a man for me. I just need to be patience and have faith. I don't want to rush being married because I only want  to be married once. Marriage requires a lot from both parties involved. I believe I have what it takes and I believe God will send me someone who feels the same as I do. Patience is a virtue...marriage is truly important to me. I will continue to practice patience and let God send him to me. Ok, I'm done lol Just had to get that out my system. AHHH!! I feel better!!

Just A Memory

You use to be more than a memory.

Now your like an enemy.

By all means I'm in need of a remedy

To release this chemistry that use to be between you & me. Your just an old sad memory. Like an old habit I'm trying to break...

You make a sista want to date outside her race.

I'm desperately in a rush to replace your face.

I feel like super women without a cape...

Looking for away to escape

Your face is no longer the place where I get lost in your eyes. You hid your lies between my thighs every time I asked why?? Why do you love me?? Why do you make me cry??

The answers are so clear. You were in love with the idea of me.

You & I were never truly meant to be.

Now your just a memory... hunting me.

I just want to set this broken heart free...

To much pain still remains in the sheets were we once laid

Your love was like a liquor bottle with no cap

You poured a cup full of bullshit over two frozen ice cubes

I sat an drank my shit straight

Needed something strong to numb this pain

You are just an old memory...

who needs to be erased

I know someday all this hurt will be replace with my true loves face

In My Feelings...

I just been thinking lately and I realize that men are just as confusing as they claim women are. Granted there are a few women out there who are unsure of themselves and they have no clue what they want as far as men or anything else is concerned. However, I'm speaking for the women who do know what they want and who are more than fed up with these confused ass so called grown men. Like wtf(what the f***)?? I'm angry. I can not put all the blame on the fellas though. Ladies, ladies, ladies we have got to stop entertaining these men who have no clue about wtf they want just so we can get a portion of what we want. It's not fun and we should not settle just to say we got a damn man. Where the real men at?? It's true what they say girls do mature faster than boys. Maturity is not just based on age, it has to do a lot with your mind set. You can be 50 and still be immature. 

My King is still out there, and I just want him to know that his Queen is still waiting.

Letting Go & Moving On...

When you have been with someone for a long time and have shared numerous things its hard to just let go and move on. When you have invested so much of yourself into a person its hard to just let go and move on. Letting go and moving on is not impossible but it will surely take some time. You can never get your time or love back, nor can you erase the memories that have been made & shared between you and that person. But what you can do is let go and move on to something or someone much better. 


Being single again teaches you all the things you forgot about yourself when you where in a relationship. It reminds you how important you are. You fall back in love with yourself. It builds you back up again. You are almost reborn again. Your soul is a lot more stronger. You feel more sexy, confidence, and much more secure. Your a new women with a new attitude. The only thing that is holding you back from you is "You". Letting go is hard to do when some of you is still holding on to that person. Moving on is easy when you know it must be done and when your not afraid for new things to come.


Letting go means letting go of all the hurt, pain, anger & memories. Moving on means embracing the  new beginning ahead and not looking back. Being newly single is very empowering and liberating. It helps you to focus on you and to re-evaluate what you want and what you won't allow. What your ready for and what you want to explore. It allows you to be free...and not make any decisions until you are for sure. Everything is done on your time. You are back in control of "You". 

Some Questions I Need Answered...

Why do women love so hard?? Why do we allow ourselves to be hurt by a man we know we can do without?? Why does growing up with out a father leave us so emotional scared and looking for that love we never experienced in our companion?? Why do we stay with a man when he isn't giving us what we deserve and acknowledging our worth, value and time just because we love him?? So many questions and very few answers. It's hard realizing what you want when your so stuck on what you need for the moment!! I'm just in the process of moving on from a relationship that was full of more pain than happiness and more bad memories than good ones. At some point ladies, we have to take responsibility for the hurt we feel because we see the signs but we are so determine to change a man than to just leave him alone and go with the man who is exactly what we need. Love is a beautiful, but even more beautiful when it's with the right person. Every hurt ache or heart break is a lesson. I don't ever want to experience another one. 

Being Grateful....

I'm so grateful for my life. I may not have the best situation or life but its mines. I try not to complain because it could be worst. I just think about how great GOD is and how grateful I am for all HE has done for me. Sometimes in life we forget who is most important & who is the driver of our life. I have to remind myself from time to time WHO is the driver of my life. I only serve him & it is because of HIM that I even exist. I am  more spiritual than religious. Nevertheless, I know I serve an awesome GOD!! I just want to remind those who forget & myself how truly grateful we are & should continue to be for the big/small things in our lives. Amen!! 


P>S Won't He Do It!!

MUSIC....??

Music has been a passion of mines for some time. I started singing when I was 11yrs. old. I love music that takes me to a different place. That makes me think, relate, feel better than I did before I popped that CD in, turn the bass up so my speakers could bump, soul jumping, heart pumping, hands swaying, I mean I'm just saying...Ok I got a lil bit caught up in rhyming.Ya'll get the point. I enjoy singing, it brings so much peace to my soul. I'm calm, and in the mist of a music note, I feel that much closer to GOD. Pretty deep right?? Yea I know lol but its true. Sometimes when I'm having a not-so-great day, I just think of a favorite song and I replay it over and over again in my head. This year, I would like to take my music to the next level. Writing, stage presences, my voice, and just pushing my self. Sometimes we can be our own worst enemy. I understand a lot about music and I have been through and experienced things that others can relate too. I have a way with words as well. I am also good with rhyming. I just want to utilize my musical talent. Music is Life and Is apart of my Life.