I Forgive Me...

I forgive myself for loving you when I should've been loving me
Who knew this love would hurt me so deep
So consumed with being the best women I could be
When all along you weren't deserving of me
I forgive me for staying when I should've let
Baby you were like rehab
I needed some help
All I wanted was to be understood
For you to love me like no other man could
I realize that you didn't appreciate what I had to offer
Yet you kept reaching for my offerings
I forgive me for accepting way less than what I deserve
You were like a disease with no cure
I became my own bad habit
I got caught in the mist of my own traffic
I was ready to reek havick
But then I had to forgive me
I loved you endlessly and repeatedly When baby you weren't loving me
You chose your friends numerous time
I spent a lot of alone time
I wanted to be happy as your wife
Too many broken promises
No consistency in your actions
I was stuck in a real life fatal attraction
It didn't need a caption
Looking in the mirror with eye's full of tears
Saying damn...how could I let this happen
I wish you would have wiped my tears
All along you had disappeared
I was left to figure some shit out
Without a doubt this ship had begin to set sail
Then I been to forgive me for experiencing such misery
The pain started to disappear as I had to face my own fears
A women like me shouldn't be sleeping alone

Happily Single!!

It's been along time coming. I have stayed and went back & forth in a relationship with someone who was unaware of my value. I am worth more than what I was allowing myself to experience. However, I was given this test repeatedly until I passed. I finally got tired. Only you know when it's time to move on and you don't look back. I am fully aware of my role that I played. I take full responsibility for all the pain I endured. If I blame the other person, how does that help me heal?? The thing is, it doesn't. I am in the process of healing because I understand why I stayed when I should have left. I understand why I continued to give when he still did not appreciate what I was offering. Through all the hurt there was a lesson for me to learn. I have wounds, but those wounds will heal and become scars. Those scars will be proof that I am a fighter and I have learned from this lesson and passed the test. I still love him. However, I love me more. So now I am choosing to love him from a distance. You can be an amazing women all day but if that  man isn't ready for the kind of women that you are, then you're wasting your time. I am choosing my happiness over  trying to make someone else happy. You will drain yourself emotionally trying to be everything to someone who is not deserving of what you have to offer. I love extremely hard and most women do. We just have to know how to decipher when and who to love hard. Every man is not worthy of your love or your time. I look back and reflect but I look forward with no regrets. I am truly "Happily Single". I am choosing Me. I will focus on becoming a "Better Me". No one will love you, more than You. Sincerely,
Loving Me :-)