Just A Memory

You use to be more than a memory.

Now your like an enemy.

By all means I'm in need of a remedy

To release this chemistry that use to be between you & me. Your just an old sad memory. Like an old habit I'm trying to break...

You make a sista want to date outside her race.

I'm desperately in a rush to replace your face.

I feel like super women without a cape...

Looking for away to escape

Your face is no longer the place where I get lost in your eyes. You hid your lies between my thighs every time I asked why?? Why do you love me?? Why do you make me cry??

The answers are so clear. You were in love with the idea of me.

You & I were never truly meant to be.

Now your just a memory... hunting me.

I just want to set this broken heart free...

To much pain still remains in the sheets were we once laid

Your love was like a liquor bottle with no cap

You poured a cup full of bullshit over two frozen ice cubes

I sat an drank my shit straight

Needed something strong to numb this pain

You are just an old memory...

who needs to be erased

I know someday all this hurt will be replace with my true loves face

In My Feelings...

I just been thinking lately and I realize that men are just as confusing as they claim women are. Granted there are a few women out there who are unsure of themselves and they have no clue what they want as far as men or anything else is concerned. However, I'm speaking for the women who do know what they want and who are more than fed up with these confused ass so called grown men. Like wtf(what the f***)?? I'm angry. I can not put all the blame on the fellas though. Ladies, ladies, ladies we have got to stop entertaining these men who have no clue about wtf they want just so we can get a portion of what we want. It's not fun and we should not settle just to say we got a damn man. Where the real men at?? It's true what they say girls do mature faster than boys. Maturity is not just based on age, it has to do a lot with your mind set. You can be 50 and still be immature. 

My King is still out there, and I just want him to know that his Queen is still waiting.

Letting Go & Moving On...

When you have been with someone for a long time and have shared numerous things its hard to just let go and move on. When you have invested so much of yourself into a person its hard to just let go and move on. Letting go and moving on is not impossible but it will surely take some time. You can never get your time or love back, nor can you erase the memories that have been made & shared between you and that person. But what you can do is let go and move on to something or someone much better. 


Being single again teaches you all the things you forgot about yourself when you where in a relationship. It reminds you how important you are. You fall back in love with yourself. It builds you back up again. You are almost reborn again. Your soul is a lot more stronger. You feel more sexy, confidence, and much more secure. Your a new women with a new attitude. The only thing that is holding you back from you is "You". Letting go is hard to do when some of you is still holding on to that person. Moving on is easy when you know it must be done and when your not afraid for new things to come.


Letting go means letting go of all the hurt, pain, anger & memories. Moving on means embracing the  new beginning ahead and not looking back. Being newly single is very empowering and liberating. It helps you to focus on you and to re-evaluate what you want and what you won't allow. What your ready for and what you want to explore. It allows you to be free...and not make any decisions until you are for sure. Everything is done on your time. You are back in control of "You". 

Some Questions I Need Answered...

Why do women love so hard?? Why do we allow ourselves to be hurt by a man we know we can do without?? Why does growing up with out a father leave us so emotional scared and looking for that love we never experienced in our companion?? Why do we stay with a man when he isn't giving us what we deserve and acknowledging our worth, value and time just because we love him?? So many questions and very few answers. It's hard realizing what you want when your so stuck on what you need for the moment!! I'm just in the process of moving on from a relationship that was full of more pain than happiness and more bad memories than good ones. At some point ladies, we have to take responsibility for the hurt we feel because we see the signs but we are so determine to change a man than to just leave him alone and go with the man who is exactly what we need. Love is a beautiful, but even more beautiful when it's with the right person. Every hurt ache or heart break is a lesson. I don't ever want to experience another one.