My 30th birthday is less than a month a way. Lately I have found myself doing a lot of reflecting and evaluating my life overall. I have thought about the past and what I have experienced. The present and the future. I have been blessed beyond my measures. I am grateful, thoughtful and appreciative for all God has done and is doing in my life. However, one thing that has been on my mind more than anything is "what my purpose/passion in life is?" There are many things that I can be great at yet, I am just unsure of what my purpose is. I am happy overall with my life however, I feel like knowing my purpose would be the cherry on top. I have career goals that i am interested in such as Pharamacy Technician and Physical Therapy but they are not my passion and I don't feel like they are my purpose. As I head into the next chapter in life I want to become more disciplined in my actions and more focused and determined on my goals. I want to find my passion and purpose in life. I want to wake-up everyday knowing that I am living not only as a mother, a daughter, sister, cousin, friend, auntie ect. But that I know my purpose and passion in life. It's so important to me to find out what it is. I know my 30's will be filled with more love, more happiness, more loving friends and family, more memories and more blessings. I want to enter this age pure as possible in my mind body and spirit. I want to fully connect with the truest depth of myself and emerge fully in my purpose. I am welcoming my 30's with open arms and trusting that God will help reveal what my purpose and passion are in this life. 30 is a new beginning and a new chapter of growth.
Tuesday, August 30, 2016
Monday, May 9, 2016
Late Night Thoughts Turned Into A Prayer
As I lay here in my bed holding my 10 month old daughter with my life partner snoring...I begin to pray. I pray for myself, my children, my life partner, my family and closes friends, my partners family. I realize that I am much more spiritual then I give myself credit for. As I have gotten older in age, I find myself praying more. I still worry a bit, I'm human lol. However, prayer has become something that I do more than often. I have always had a relationship with God. I remember being afraid to talk to God at a point in my life.I feared He did not hear me and I was unsure what to pray for. As I begin to experience life on numerous level that fear become less of fear and more of faith. God is real. God is "The Most High". God is...just God. I have never been so sure about the presence of God in my life as much as I do now. I find myself being much more thankful and grateful about the big and small things in life. Life is not promised. You have to do your absolute best to enjoy every aspect of your life. Even though I continue to struggle with my own insecurities, I pray that I find my truest, most honest and pure purpose before I leave this earth. I am forever growing and learning the truest parts of me, good and bad. I am discovering things about myself that I was never able to understand until now. I not only want to make myself proud but most importantly, I want to make God proud. I want to do what God sent me here to do. I want my relationship with God to continue to grow and mature. I want prayer to become more and more of a daily behavior. God did not have to show me that He was real but He did. For that, a I am beyond thankful and eternally grateful. I owe it all to God. If there was ever a doubt that God is real, I am living proof that God will show up, show out and reveal a lot of things to you. Even when you don't feel like you are worthy enough, God will show you otherwise. You just have to believe and have faith. I say all this to say...that God is working on me. He is doing some serious work and I am open to all the trials and blessings that are forthcoming. God bless you and goodnight!