As I lay here in my bed holding my 10 month old daughter with my life partner snoring...I begin to pray. I pray for myself, my children, my life partner, my family and closes friends, my partners family. I realize that I am much more spiritual then I give myself credit for. As I have gotten older in age, I find myself praying more. I still worry a bit, I'm human lol. However, prayer has become something that I do more than often. I have always had a relationship with God. I remember being afraid to talk to God at a point in my life.I feared He did not hear me and I was unsure what to pray for. As I begin to experience life on numerous level that fear become less of fear and more of faith. God is real. God is "The Most High". God is...just God. I have never been so sure about the presence of God in my life as much as I do now. I find myself being much more thankful and grateful about the big and small things in life. Life is not promised. You have to do your absolute best to enjoy every aspect of your life. Even though I continue to struggle with my own insecurities, I pray that I find my truest, most honest and pure purpose before I leave this earth. I am forever growing and learning the truest parts of me, good and bad. I am discovering things about myself that I was never able to understand until now. I not only want to make myself proud but most importantly, I want to make God proud. I want to do what God sent me here to do. I want my relationship with God to continue to grow and mature. I want prayer to become more and more of a daily behavior. God did not have to show me that He was real but He did. For that, a I am beyond thankful and eternally grateful. I owe it all to God. If there was ever a doubt that God is real, I am living proof that God will show up, show out and reveal a lot of things to you. Even when you don't feel like you are worthy enough, God will show you otherwise. You just have to believe and have faith. I say all this to say...that God is working on me. He is doing some serious work and I am open to all the trials and blessings that are forthcoming. God bless you and goodnight!
